Showing posts with label emotion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotion. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 5, 2022

Loss

 Death  

is part of life. 

Not an opposite, 

Death is the unpopular little sister. 

 

I, when a child, 

 had a pet cemetery under an apple tree 

where I buried every hamster and bunny and baby chick, 

where at first I mourned, and then listened to the wind and the birds, 

experienced the life-filled world anew— 

not forgetting, but becoming more alive. 

 

We are told to be soft-hearted. 

To be vulnerable is to allow pain, 

to allow space for others with holes in their hearts, 

no matter how tempting to close, 

safe but empty. 

 

Loss, and pain, and grief, 

are vital, even Holy, 

binding every man, every person, every creature together, 

if we are soft, 

if we are open. 

Share, embrace, give, listen, love, 

to each other, to the lost, to yourself, to our Family. 

Faith is the certainty that I do not have the answers, 

but that my Father has the answers, 

and they are the best possible answers. 


I am here, friend. 

I am open. 

I am trying. 

We are whole in our brokenness, 

and we are together. 



Note: This poem goes with a previous poem, Grief. I wrote that one after losing my son. I wrote this one after my child lost a beloved pet, and the emotion is second-hand, but amplified as I worry for her.

 

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Unglued

 My desert garden needs a touch of personality.

I'll make dinosaurs, fun for my kids to look at,
and superglue them to the rocks
or they will shatter in clumsy hands.
I take my birthday clay and shape
my first,
a megasaurus:
long tail, head sideways, claws curled.
Each time I set him to dry I must reattach
a limb.
An arm fell off, a leg, his head.
Then for shaping, peeling off the extra,
smooth with gentlest sponge.
Claws fall off.
Well, I can paint over that.
Right?
Set him to dry, two weeks this time.
Hue lightens as he ages, terra cotta to vague gray.
All in one piece,
he looks as good as my imagination.
Take him down to paint.
I'll make this a fun activity,
earn good Mommy points,
so I pull out a lesser statue for the boys.
Leave the room to retrieve the paint.
Crash.
Tattling: "My brother broke it."
Dinosaur is in pieces.
Broken.
I put him on the shelf,
say I'm sad but do not yell,
earn good Mommy points.
Later, send them outside.
Superglue his arms, a leg, his head.
Cracks remain, and pieces too small for the glue.
I can paint over that, right?
Begin to paint.
Nudge his head.
Head falls off.

Scream at the universe:
"I am having a bad day!"

Wonder, is there some Meaning,
a parable in this tale?
I am the statue trying to fit the ideal,
sometimes coming unglued
or losing my head.
I retreat, let the frustration dry.
Later I'll get the glue
and try again.


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